Today has been hard. Not sure why, it's just another day, but for some reason I'm struggling. Maybe it's because every day now for the last 2 months we have been waiting to receive our home study draft so we can move on to the next step. I realize this wait is minimal compared to what we still have ahead of us, but I have to take it one step at a time, and we have been stuck on this step too long in my mind. Today also included an agency conference call that confirmed MOWCYA is processing 10 letters per day (up from their 5 a day cut back in March) which is wonderful news. They also confirmed though there is still "unrest" in the process and everyday is a battle, both spiritually and in the offices of the leaders. They also noted the courts would be closing August 8th for the rainy season as they do every year (courts will stay closed until late September/early October). I have always been sure we would have our dossier in well before court closing, but with the length of wait for our home study, that might not be a reality. So, I had a brief cry, which I felt I was entitled to (when pregnant no one questioned "emotional episodes" so I feel I deserve that pass during adoption too). Earlier this morning I had briefly mentioned a bit of frustration in an email to my mom. We had gone back and forth about it, upcoming events and trips and continued on with the day. Right in the middle of my personal pity party, she emailed again and said to go watch Laura Story's "Blessings" video on YouTube. One of my favorites, I just love this song right now and she reminded me of it right when I needed it. Those moms...it's like they always know what you need when you need it. Thanks.